It's interesting what has transpired in the last 2 years, and especially the last two weeks of my life, given what I heard on Glenn Beck's talkshow this morning. A caller identified herself as an older mother who felt the only way to stop the tyranny of the government was to stop paying taxes (which I've been saying for a while now, although not advocating it). After an emotional outcry, Glenn told her that the most important thing for her to remember, was that she was a mother, and it would be better to be at home with her child of 10 years, showing to them what the meaning of freedom was, rather than sitting in jail, away from their little one.

Freedom. That's an interesting thought. Because, you see, just recently, I was told by a great many sources, that if I didn't surrender my freedom; if I didn't give in to the lies and tyranny of the corrupted public officials and law enforcement, that I too, would be away from my child and hurting him, and that was not the best answer. Of course, what choice did I have? When the government can hold my child over my head, like some sort of bargaining chip, than I am, truly helpless. When the people we place in charge of law and law enforcement are permitted to lie and act without accountability (think your politicians are corrupted? Try following it down the trail back to the "little" guy, and remember where those politicians came from and what they were before politicians), then We, the People, of this most perfect union, are deprived of our Constitutional rights, labeled as dangerous lawbreakers and thrown to the wolves by our peers who are ignorant of the truth behind the facts.

But, I had to make a choice. My child, or my freedom. Am I teaching him about freedom by doing what I did? I don't know. He will hear a great many things said about me now that will forever affect his life. I will spend the rest of my life labeled and in purgatory on Earth because an overzealous and corrupted Congress passed corrupted laws that are enforced by a broken system.

But, I'm just whining because I lost, right? I'm just guilty of everything charged and am only trying to cover up the facts, right? After all, that's what they say on the news. That's what "Oprah," blasts all over the media and her show. That's what the "honest," and "sincere," news reporters and Congress people tell you everyday. No, no - forget all the other lies. Thinking that these people lie all the time and about everything would just be absurd. True, but absurd. And, no, forget about the media, because we know for a FACT, that news only reports facts that are true and accurate, right?

Because, if I was guilty, why would the prosecution "use," against me, my own ten year old child, showing me that he would be ripped away from me and left to a dangerous world should I do what's right and fight for my innocence and freedom. And, why would any prosecution lie about prosecuting somebody? It's not like they get PAID, the more they prosecute. That would just be ridiculous, because it might undermine the entire purpose of protecting the public interest. And, don't tell me about the dishonesty of the police, or the corruption therein, simply because the State says that: The authorities have a right to lie to people, to make false promises and threaten them to get a "confession." Of course, I do "see," the fallacy in "innocence," pleas, such as Alford pleas, that are merely shells over a guilty plea, whereby one is required to assert that they haven't been threatened or coerced into the plea. Because, if I was, I am going to trial and would be gambling with my child's life. It's better that I do as the mafia.. um, oops.. sorry - Freudian slip there - the authorities require, and accept guilt for something I didn't do, in order to defend the FREEDOMS for my son.

Freedom. What a joke. The Bible says that the very basic element of God's gift of life is: free will. But, we're not free. We can't choose to make the mistakes to get us in trouble and learn from them. We can't choose right and wrong. Your television and radio and even the internet blast you daily - hourly - minute by minute - with senseless garbage telling you how to live. Your cable companies switch to high definition because you HAVE to buy a high def tv. The cell phone companies switch to new "frequencies," albeit worse reception, so that you have to buy texting/internet phones. You can't own property. You can't have food from your own two hands of hard work. You can't breathe air without paying for it. You can't have water without paying for it. (taxes on all of that for those of you that didn't get the meaning there). You can't WALK IN THE FREAKIN' FORESTS WITHOUT PAYING A FEE.

But, my son will have a father (that is, if the system doesn't push this even farther and try to mess me over even more - which I am fully prepared to accept that it might). Is he free? By no means. Just today, on the news, was the report of a 14 year old boy with pics on his phone of girls his age. While we shouldn't have our children running around doing this - the girls who sent him pictures - will see no punishment, while he, will face criminal charges for indecent child images. The fact: HE'S A CHILD. Heaven forbid my son gets ahold of an adult magazine ever, or is so into girls that he can't control his hormones without intervention. But, I wouldn't be turning him into the police, in an attempt to turn the girls in who are acting this way - because my child would go to prison for being - A CHILD. Yeah, that's freedom.

The recent New York Mayor's "sting," to analyze the ease with which weapons could be obtained took place in Ohio, Tennesse and Nevada. The laws in Ohio state that it is not necessary to have a license or permit to buy a gun. In Tennesse, the State also does not have many of the rules that the "undercover," cops were there to test. WHAT? Wait - WHY were they there? What right did the Mayor of New York have in costing tax payers a nice, big chunk of money, to undermine the independence of these States? Look, I'm not questioning the actions of the sellers at the shows - they could have been very wrong - I don't know. What I am questioning is the ILLEGAL actions of the authorities! Are these sellers secure in their persons or things? Are they permitted FREE TRADE under the Capitalist system? NO!

What’s going on? Want to see “freedom,” being abolished: just read the laws regarding the Brady Background Check from Nevada:

• is an ex-felon.
• is an illegal alien.
• has been dishonorably discharged from the Armed Forces.
• has renounced U.S. citizenship.
• has been convicted of a misdemeanor crime of domestic violence.
• is under indictment or information for a [crime] punishable by imprisonment for a term exceeding one year.

BEFORE YOU JUDGE – BEFORE YOU SAY ONE WORD – lest you be more wicked than they, let me break this down for you:

1.       An ex-felon – someone who has PAID THEIR DEBT TO SOCIETY – but now shall be held without the same Constitutional freedoms as any other. WHAT are we doing? How do we expect “law” to provide reform, when we punish people for their whole lives? How do the people who make these laws expect the people to act – when THEY THEMSELVES, create harmful and harassing laws to govern the people?

2.       An illegal alien – hey, I’m not in support of illegal immigration – but this is NOT to protect the public interest – did you know that? This IS to protect the cops who go hunting these guys down. Maybe, if we had a better system, created better laws, were more “just,” and “decent,” as we, as a country, so blatantly claim to be, standing vainly before the world – we wouldn’t HAVE THIS PROBLEM! Fix one problem of Constitutional violations by creating another Constitutional violation? Only in America…. *sigh*

3.       Has Renounced U.S. Citizenship – that’s right! If you’re not with us – you’re against us! You’re a “commie!” I digress – please watch “Battle for Terra,” a very WELL DONE, and amazingly wonderful show for families of all ages, and try to understand the horrifically deranged, mental attitude that must be adopted in order to support this decision.

4.       Convicted of misdemeanor of Domestic Violence – You mean, like, their kid, while high on drugs, tried SHOOTING his mom, but dad stepped in, disarmed his kid, and struck him in the face in the process to try and bring him down and the cops arrested dad for being a violent offender against children, but in retrospect, based on a SCREWED UP system, dad only got a misdemeanor because he only hit his son once, trying to stop him from killing his own mother while high? Yeah – makes PERFECT SENSE.

5. Now – I’m going to take an extra special look at this one – because all the others – you can justify with the mental, hysteria, media-driven, brain dead mentality that governs most Americans as my just being another ignorant person who believes in Constitutional freedoms. But, this one – “is under indictment or information for a punishable by imprisonment for a term exceeding one year.” Do you KNOW what constitutes an “indictment,” by a grand jury or the truth behind these fictitious documents? Try reading more about it if you want to have your brain blown away! Here are some facts:

• Grand Jury indictments are used in only half of the States of this Republic, because according to the 5^th amendment of the Constitution – THEY ARE ILLEGAL.
• Grand juries do NOT require ALL of the evidence, and no one is allowed to defend themselves prior to being indicted.
• Prosecutors – include those who have been proven to lie repeatedly – are left to “good faith,” in presenting the so-called “facts.”
• GRAND JURORS ARE NOT SCREENED FOR BIASES! That’s right – hate-mongers, family members of police and prosecutions – and all the rest – sit on these panels!

WELCOME TO FREE AMERICA. Yes – YOU can be indicted while sitting at home, with your family, in the quiet of the evening, reading scriptures together. You can be indicted while on vacation. YOU can be lied about – legally – without accountability to the lying party. YOUR indictment will sit on your record – for life. And, based on this LIE – you can be denied your right to go out hunting with your best friend, or keep a gun in your house in Arizona to protect yourself against terrorists who might raid your home, kidnap you, rape and kill you.

THAT’S FREEDOM.

THAT’S YOUR RIGHT TO EXERCISE YOUR FREE WILL AS GRANTED BY GOD.

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Oh wait, no it’s not! That’s the OPPOSITE of freedom. Yet, the police went to these shows, with undercover cameras (albeit an ILLEGAL act by ANY other person than the authorities who are given exemption to do ANYTHING they want), and bought guns without background checks where NO background checks were required.

Did you read my last article on “red herrings?” If not – you may want to peruse it – you know, when you’re done getting through this long monstrosity. You see, we will not hear anymore about this. We will hear more and more about innocent people being shot, in the news, while this “investigation,” is underway, so that by the time they present a bill to Congress, they’re sure the people won’t complain about it. Know what the red herring is?

What is memory? What is the importance of memory? It’s certainly not the higher cognitive function that separates us from primates; for as studies show, they too, have memories. Some researchers interpret memory as that function which helps us to become more intelligent through a more structured, hierarchal methodology of information storage, allowing us to more quickly process the massive stream of input from our daily lives. Some believe memory to be nothing more than the necessary skill required to adapt to life and evolve through experience. Both are correct, and both are wrong. It is true, that what we are today, is a culmination of everything we’ve learned, both internally and externally. Some of us can retain information better than others, and some of us have trouble just trying to remember where we left our keys! Some of us find solace in reliving the events of our past, and some turn to chemical dependency to forget the past. Memories are both our doing and undoing. There’s an old analogy that we must keep in mind when considering what our memory means to us: you have to take the good with the bad. One does not exist without the other. For example, you would have no concept of sheer joy, if you did not understand absolute disappointment. Likewise, we must also remember that it’s not only about encompassing the entirety of our emotional state, but how we respond and react to those emotions that is a key definer in our lives. You could have no understanding of fear, if you did not understand its importance through experience. For example: If you had not felt the extreme warmth – or pain – of fire, you would not understand the fear of touching the stove. Finally, we must also remember that memory is not only governed from within, but without. It’s of no little consequence that we meet the people that we do in our lives. Every person, whether we want to acknowledge it or not, affects us in some manner. Whether it’s merely shaping our perception for the day (i.e. the inconsiderate driver who cuts us off and shortens our daily tolerance levels), or leaving a mark in our consciousness (such as the parent who has a phobia or tick that we too, develop), how we perceive them in our lives, no matter how large or small that may be, they do affect our very existence.

But, I’m afraid that it can become far more complex than just living a series of events – for each of us is unique – and so are our memories.

Memories are problematic. No matter how excellent your memory is, and regardless of how intelligent (or lack thereof), you may be, your perceptions will dramatically affect your memory. It’s no foreign concept to us that upon revisiting childhood residences, everything we “remember,” seems smaller. From the perspective of a ten year old, their closet may have seemed enormous at the time; while as an adult with a much larger wardrobe (albeit far fewer toys), we often find the available space to be frustratingly tiny. There are also other types of perception than just physical. There are perspectives based solely upon our feelings. For example, if we were in a fairly consistent state of feeling somewhat peaceful and happy, and a family member constantly went on tirades, we might have perceived that person to be “outrageous,” or overbearing and possibly even abusive. In retrospect, having grown up and joined the workforce in a blue collar position ourselves – under the command of an intolerable boss – we might be able to more easily understand that our parent was simply coming home, frustrated by the abuse they were taking and the constant state of fear they lived in, worrying about how they could feed their family, and simply venting their frustration and we were taking it personally. This very phenomenon is well documented in the psychological community.

Yet, it doesn’t end there. For what is a perception, if not a unique and individual interpretation of an event.

Not the facts.

What does this mean? This means that every one of us, at some point in time, are living with a “false,” memory. Perhaps it is nothing more than believing that you shouldn’t feed your child too much peanut butter and jelly because that’s all you received as a child and you grew to hate it, when in fact, you happened to have a minor allergy to peanut butter that went unchecked during your entire child hood and the ‘less than three times per month,’ pb&j that good ol’ mom put in your lunchbox stood out in your mind as a daily torment. False memories are a terrible problem for society. They involve psychological difficulties that have caused massive deterioration in the psyche of the whole of humanity. Worse, are the implantation of false memories, even by accident, stemming from the delusional attempt of psychologists to recover “repressed,” memories. This innocent, yet horrifically egregious act, has sent innocent men and women to prison, caused individuals to have mental breakdowns, torn apart families and even been the key force in suicide and murder. You don’t often hear these stories, because they are so outrageous, and so frightening - and sadly – without a reasonable and sound explanation, that the media intentionally avoids them. If you were told that 1 out of every 25 men in prison, convicted of raping their daughters 20 or 30 years ago were innocent and actually the victims of psychology’s feeble attempt at ‘recovering,’ repressed memories, you might be less inclined to seek psychological counseling, or view the inmates in a prison with the hatred and fear that the media so strives to encourage. In fact, you may even find fault with the justice system and demand your state legislature to start requiring absolute evidence in courtrooms. Of course, this would lead to a dismissal of more than 22% of EVERY case and be the cause for the release of tens of thousands of prisoners around the nation. So, the media feels it’s better NOT to tell you.

But, therein lies the social problem of memories – because lies, deceit, false perceptions, misleading information and incorrect interpretations from external sources will affect your memories, and thusly, your entire being. I can guarantee you that right now, [most of] you have a vivid memory of being told somewhere in your youth not to talk to strangers. It was repeated so often, and under such frightening circumstances (whether lived or implied), that the importance of this fact is burned into your psyche. So, why are children still the victims of psychologically deviant adults? Because, in more than 80% of all cases of extreme abuse: it is not a stranger – but a family member. While it’s important that we continue to teach our children the importance of not speaking to strangers, the misgivings we create for them, letting them believe in absolution, the security they will find in their own homes, has lead to a constant barrage of negative behavior toward unsuspecting young ones. Of course, that’s the ‘simplicity,’ of misperception and external input. The full complexity of this dilemma does not rear its ugly head until we reach adulthood. Recently, I found myself, for the third time, a minority in the perception of events which took place in my past. It was frustrating that I was outnumbered, because I was the oldest of three brothers, so why should I have any faith in their perception of the events and absolute certainty they have over how these events played out? I even have difficulty in accepting my own parental figure’s perception of these events, regardless of the correlation it has with my brothers’, for my perception is wildly different. And, then, something happened…

I began to question myself and see an entirely new memory.

The situation was this: I remember a pair of kittens that had been given to my family when I was just a child. I vividly remember one of the kittens was hit by a car. I even remember hearing about it at the home of my grandmother, believing in my mind that it was an accident by another member of the family (or so it was presumed at the time as that member of the family brought the dead animal in with them claiming they had found it at the edge of the driveway), and being told that as we did not have any validation of who struck the animal, we could not be certain of the truth and should not make speculations that would lead to unnecessary, hurt feelings. I can even vividly remember standing in my grandmother’s paved driveway, staring out at the edge of it and wondering where exactly it happened (in my mind, it was a mystery I wanted resolved for I felt very distraught at the animal’s passing). However, my family remembers the events in a completely different setting. They remember that we had moved out to a vineyard with a dirt road, when we first obtained the kittens. They remember the dead one being brought in by one of the Hispanic workers (or pointed out to them, at least) after it had been stuck (after having owned them only a short time). I don’t believe I was actually there when the kitten was brought into the house and we were informed of its death, as I was told about this, and have no mixed or confirmed memories either way. But, as I played out this event in my head, again and again, something strange happened. Now, when I remember back to looking out at the driveway to try and determine where and how the animal was killed, I see the unpaved road of the vineyard – not my grandmother’s house.

Wait a second – did that happen? Now I can clearly see BOTH memories, and my mind is in absolute turmoil. Which one is the correct one, for they both cannot be accurate? I know my brain has been attempting to resolve this, but as of yet, no such luck. On one hand, there is the absolute confirmation of my family members that their story is true and can be collaborated. On the other hand, I have my sound and vivid memory of this event; for it was a traumatic one in my mind and stands out. If they are correct – I am certifiably insane. Why? Because, it was by no external influence or other means that my mind resolved the memory to have taken place at the home of my grandmother. My psyche fabricated a memory on its own (or altered it, as the case may be); for whatever reason it decided to do so. But, why? What purpose did it serve to change the location? Did it ‘ease the pain?’ Or perhaps, was the event so obscure and unimportant that as I grew older, I simply forgot the details and my mind filled them in for me? Either way – if my family is correct – how many more memories of mine are wrong? How many memories of mine will I never be able to know the truth about simply because there is no one else to confirm the facts? Worried, I decided to see if I was alone in the world, to understand if the alteration of one’s memories by one’s own psyche was indeed, at all, unique. I’m not concerned about the memories which may be altered by a physical perception such as weight vs. height or size, but an alteration of an entire event based on an unknown and indeterminable factor.

I am not alone.

In fact, given my disability, I am in a worse position than every other person out there without a similar, neurological condition, to have a completely fabricated memory of my youth. In a research study published by John Merriman in Neurology Reviews, “Dreaming – An Altered State of Consciousness,” (2002), scientists had determined that through the more recent advances in research on narcolepsy and lucid dreaming, they were able to determine that the enhanced, emotional states of “wake” dreaming, could give way to false memories (see full research study for details). This is a phenomenon I am all too well aware of, for it’s the neurological condition with which I live. Oft times I must address members of my family, friends and colleagues and ask for confirmation on whether or not an event actually occurred. Without spending too much time detailing the science of lucid dreaming, I’ll shorten it to say that: distinguishing a lucid dream from the truth, can sometimes become a near impossible task – and that’s after 15 years of practice. Yet, I have never experienced a time during these states in which I completely relived an actual event that could give way to an alteration of the truth. And, yet, the altered memories I have are indeed, a very real problem that I must accept and deal with.

If we are the culmination of the events of our lives, then what are we when our memories are not what they seem? How do we begin to accept our own mortality – our own reality of existence – when it’s all a lie (or at least a portion of it – and what portion that is – we cannot know)?

In the article, Memory and the Misinformation Effect, (1997/2005), the author, Marica Sevelj, discusses the published accounts of the phenomenon of altered memories. This article, which has gone widely unnoticed or recognized in professional circles (to the best of my research), is perhaps one of the most profound and important statements on the cause of humanity’s current state of existence that can be found anywhere. Recent media personalities such as Glenn Beck have fought hard to bring to light the truth about our Founding fathers and some of the darker secrets of more recent Presidents whom we have apparently, ‘admired,’ as a nation, for the last 50 – 60 years. In fact, several radio personalities have begun to disclose their concerns over alterations by the government regarding books and historical “facts.” But, their recent revelations have not changed the fact that these alterations and modifications, falsifications of truth by the media, alterations of perception in our education and religion, have been occurring and have already affected us. What can we take from that? For starters, we can begin to understand why our nation – and even the world – has turned out the way it is today. I’m not trying to implicate that humanity is ‘bad,’ per se, just because our oceans are polluted to the point of near, absolute ecological destruction; our water table contains a myriad of poisons in it that have irreversibly altered our evolutional course; and we have bankrolled ourselves into a society of “technology-needy” people; I’m just saying that we are definitely at a point that is not as good as it could be.

But, is memory to blame?

If we perceive that our spending habits are good because the media enforces it (see previous blog on Capitalism vs. Free Enterprise), then perhaps, based on our perception, it is good because we have no reason to believe otherwise. But, if our spending habits and technology-needy society has reduced itself to a global, economic crisis and seems to be confused as to how it happened, pointing fingers in every direction and at every person they can find – then perhaps this altered perception – externally driven, is a serious problem. If we blindly have perceived justice to be well-established and run in an entirely highly moralistic fashion (whether through television’s influence or our own fear of questioning the system), and we feel justice is being well served, then perhaps it is. However, if there are innocent people sitting in prison; entire governmental agencies committing outrageous acts against the people and children (see previous blogs on DHS/CPS and Capitalism), and defending itself through the justice system and the fear mongering it enforces with threats of prison, then perhaps, things are much worse than they seem.

And, now I must ask the question about my own memory regarding the kitten: were my brothers’ memories influenced by a suggestion by our parent? Now, which one of these memories is accurate? How do I know? One of my parents can show documents legally filed by the other, validating facts which they themselves, had not realized to be true, and facts can begin to assert themselves accordingly. I can be shown documents I apparently created that I have no memory of creating, and facts can again, be worked out by the conscious and unconscious states of the mind and the truth be known. But, where there are no documents, no pictures and no facts – just like it would be in a court case with no ‘factual,’ evidence, only circumstantial evidence, we must either accept what we’re told as the truth, stick with our own version of the truth, or remain undecided. The trouble is – if we accept their version – then we have a neurological problem with our own memories and thusly, our very existence. If remain true to our own versions of the story, we will still have that lingering, small bit of doubt that will plague us constantly as we are still in contradiction with others. Yet, if we remain undecided, we have two memories – two possibilities in which both could be wrong – and the real difficulty in understanding our existence and how to interpret what we’re given on a daily basis, begins.

Look around you – go ahead – I’ll wait……. Seen enough? Now, remember what you saw: A computer, walls, paint, yourself, perhaps other co-workers or people you know? Perhaps you looked out a window at the sky, or maybe just the building next door that’s framed by your window. It’s both what you see, and what you didn’t see, that’s the problem. Think about the people around you, the ‘anxieties,’ developed, the economical conditions of our world and how we’re living. How can we perceive the truth about them if they are hiding their feelings? Think about the things you own and possess that affects your daily lives. That computer – wasn’t there 30 years ago. Your cell phone wasn’t there 20 years ago. The buildings and homes you see outside, or perhaps the skyline over an ecosystem that may appear to be thriving wildly but is in fact, severely hurting from the acts of humanity, are not what you grew up with, or at least, not what you were told about. Remember the Brontosaurus? The peaceful, loving herbivore from the Jurassic period we were taught about in school? Gone. No more. Oops – science spent 50 years of school text books telling us it was real and then, *poof* - it’s gone.

Poof – it’s gone? WTF? How can it be “gone?” First off – to us – it never existed, we simply take it on faith that it did. If the people who control what we read and see every day, who influence our lives on a minute by minute basis, can simply erase things overnight, then what else is gone? What else doesn’t exist that we don’t know once existed? Our children don’t know what a brontosaurus is, unless we’ve told them. And, their children will most certainly not know what it is. The dilemma is not necessarily the importance of the Brontosaurus itself (although the accuracy of science should be a factor we all take seriously), but rather, it is the point in which we determine what’s “important,” and what’s not. Is it important that there was a brontosaurus? Does it matter that it’s actually an Apatosaurus? While you may be telling yourself that something that lived that long ago is just not that important – remember – it is a memory you possess that was erased. Remember – that the people who shaped your lives, and are now shaping the lives of our children, mislead you. Maybe that Brontosaurus isn’t that “important,” but how much else have they “mislead,” you with – that is important? If people like Glenn Beck didn’t stand up and tell us the truth about what our most “beloved,” presidents really preached to us, would we know? Would we remember? And, yet – the information is right there in front of us. We have heard their speeches, and yet, we’ve heard nothing. I posted a blog back during Obama’s campaign that linked directly to his website, which he has now dramatically altered [of course], that detailed his intentions on health care reform and the public option. I posted links on his economic reform that HE, and his campaign crew, posted on the internet for all to see. These were statements on his intentions for America which he is now trying to implement and everyone is opposed to. People are claiming that he didn’t “turn out to be the President they expected.” Why? The information was right there in front of them. Some read it; some didn’t. Regardless of who read it, they still voted for him because they couldn’t see what was there even though they were looking right at it!

There is a belief that the civilizations of middle America that were first met by Christopher Columbus, could not see his boats approaching. It is believed by some, that because they could not comprehend or fathom the fact that things such ocean-bearing ships existed, in order to deal with it, their psyche blocked it out. There are those that say this is rubbish. And, yet, we have actual maps showing the world as flat, with water pouring off the edge into an empty abyss. At one point, the whole of humanity accepted the world was flat because they were told it was by the same Monarchy and leaders that abused their power over them. Until the last part of the 19^th century when Freud began his career, so-called, ‘psychologists,’ believed in lobotomizing people as a means to cure insanity and criminal behavior! It was a legally accepted pretense! Until 2 years ago, a State in America – the land of freedom – still contained a clause that made it legal to kill certain religious groups!? The people accepted it, because their leaders – the people they trusted to be in charge – said it was okay. And, yet, have things changed? Are our memories repaired? Are we no longer lead down the primrose path of self-delusion stemming from the falsification of our lives? Have we overcome the obstacle of altered memories and found the resolutions of peace that will affirm our existence with a resounding, unquestioned tone of facts? Do you remember looking around? Do you need me to really answer that question for you? In fact, it’s better if you seek out the answer on your own – because my perception is not yours. My history is shrouded in confusion and doubt and I have a long way to go in working that out.

Just remember this – we cannot dwell on this topic. We cannot live in the constant state of doubt which leads down a darkened path, for I too, have done this. Questioning faith, reality and existence to the point I wasn’t paying enough attention to my life allowed dark forces to break in and destroy it. But, if they had not, I would not have seen the truth; I would not have seen them for who and what they really are. I would not have begun to understand how it is that six different people in my family have different memories, at different times, of the same event. I would not have begun to understand how to “live,” and truly survive in our culture, weaving my way through the dark waters of misinformation that has plagued us to this very day. What did happen to the kitten over 20 years ago? That is a mystery that may remain unresolved, but it's one issue I can live with, for I enjoyed him while we had him, and have learned to love the animals in my life now even more than before. Hopefully, what can come from all of this is: you will not have to be a victim before you understand the truth of what’s happening. Perhaps, as an external influence upon your life, I can pass on my experiences, and you can learn the truth for yourself. Just like the child who doesn’t have to actually get burned to understand that touching the stove is painful, accepting the truth on faith from those who would not lie to them, you too can avoid getting burned and begin to question the truth about your past. Was it so bad? Was it so terrible? Is what you’re being told the truth? Which of your perceptions on reality today are governed by your own mind, and which are the culmination of lies?  How much of your past should you question, and how much can you simply shrug off? Many people live in a very depressed state because they remember negative events from their past, and while those events may be of such severity that their depression is well-justified, perhaps the opportunity to understand that their memories are not 100% accurate, because no one’s memory is, can offer some relief. Perhaps, rather than accepting what we’re told in political and media-driven forums (including this one), we will begin to seek the truth for ourselves, accept that everything we read is only a perception or interpretation of an event, and use our own psyche to form the resolve. Then, we can truly begin to form the greatest resolution of all time – life.

When did we lose track? When did we suddenly decide one day that we are sheep, not people, and let those in charge blatantly lie to us? At what point did those in charge decide to start lying to us? I know I've addressed this issue before, but I have a couple more tidbits of "interesting," ideas to help this concern along... for you see, the United States Government has been misleading the people for quite some time. Through Capitalism, America has become a nation of greed and power. Through Capitalism, good people have been hurt. And, while many members of the media talk about America's right to be a 'Capitalist,' society, what they are really trying to refer to (I hope), is free enterprise. But, there's a huge distinction between a Capitalism and free enterprise, and it begins with the corruption of entire nations. Let's begin with an old, "conspiracy," that is not quite such a "conspiracy," as some people might believe:

Flouride. What's that you say? What does Flouride have to do with anything in politics and scandals? Well, I'll let you read the article for yourself. In fact, I encourage you to not just follow the links I've posted, but do your own research - at home or in a library. The sum total explanation is this: Flouride is a toxic waste product, that many scientific studies and EPA standards have validated is poisonous. In fact, one of the EPA reports I've linked to, confirms the facts I am presenting to you now. So, why is it in water? The aluminum industry is huge. In fact, it's so huge, that it has been a major, economic driving force since the post World War II era, when, for many years, the toxic dumping of toxic waste byproducts from aluminum manufacturing were legally deposited in landfills. However, around the mid-70's or so, based on the poisons found in the bloodstreams of millions, the EPA began to set landfill standards - including the refusal of dumping toxic chemicals in oceans, lakes, streams and landfills. Flouride was then a problem that one of the largest textile industries in the world had to deal with. And, thank goodness to Capitalism and money, they were able to buy their way into the water streams of every household and mouth of every person in this country and dispose of it through human ingestion.

Now, let's look at the FCC, television and commercials. You spend time watching your television, enjoying your shows about beautiful people in perfect bodies, with great teeth, a full head of hair and nice, thin waist-lines. This is quickly and FREQUENTLY interrupted by a series of commercials that do what? They tell you how IMPERFECT and UGLY you really are. They point out your bad teeth and the toothpaste you need, the Rogaine or hair coloring products you need for your head, the diet pills and excercise machines for your fat, the face creams and anti-aging products for your skin, and so on and so on. In other words, Hollywood, much like the American Dental Association (ADA), was offered a big, fat check for LYING to you. Hollywood tells you who's ugly, and who's not. Hollywood tells you what's popular and acceptable, and what's not. This marketing strategy is amongst the most corrupt and vile forms of subliminal messaging that is possible, today. Trust me, if you go to take advertising and marketing in college for four or five years, you'll get to see first hand how they mold you into working for the Capitalist markets. But, given these two examples, what has this got to do with Capitalism?

Mind you, I could have chosen from a myriad of tens of thousands of examples. However, I specifically chose two areas of our common, every-day life that we tend to take for granted. I did this, because you need understand, that Government "lies," are not limited to what takes place in "Congress." Forget Congress. The laws they have already passed, the agencies already in place and the people supporting Congress are the biggest threat to our lives. The Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) - an agency set up by our Government and paid for through tax-payer dollars to regulate the safety of the environment and us, has passed regulations to dump toxic waste into the drinking water and do so under the guise: it's good for you! Remember the advertisements for cigarettes long, long ago? If you have a sore throat - smoke! It REALLY works! In fact, the cigarettes you smoke work so well that they'll numb your throat through the systematic destruction of the cells, providing you long-term relief. Hey, what about the ADA? It is a government established agency designed to regulate the administration of dental services, and along with the FDA, toothpastes, mouthwashes, etc. Go look at your tube of toothpaste right now. No - really, I'll wait. Go get it and come back........ (musical interlude)........... got it? Okay - now read the back: Warning: Harmful or fatal if swallowed - contact the poison control center immediately! [Sure - yours will be a variant of this - but you get the gist]. TOOTHPASTE WILL KILL YOU? Yes. Why? Flouride (amongst one or two other chemicals also contained in some toothpastes). But, that's not really the big one - the big one is a chemical whose initials are SLS. This is an industrial grade, silicon scrubbing agent that is abrasive and designed NOT to remove the plaque from your teeth, but the enamel. Don't believe me? Go ahead - you look this one up.

The point? The point is: The government is lying. And, when the government lies, WE THE PEOPLE SUFFER. I've been saying this for a while, but wanted to point out a couple small parts of your life here: the toothpaste you HAVE to buy to whiten your teeth so you can look like the perfect man or woman from your favorite, unrealistic reality show, is filled with none other than: Toxic waste and chemicals designed to make you need the services of a dentist. Capitalism people. Capitalism is NOT free enterprise. If you'd take a moment, there is a very well written article on Capitalism that was done in 2006, before the Obama era, that clearly outlines some of the major points of Capitalism. An overtly philisophical article was written in 1996 and detailed the failure of these two processes as functional together. The truth, which you will rarely find in many on-line articles and texts out there is this: Capitalism, by its sheer nature and definition, is a political structure that when, the leaders of an economy influence the decisions of a government - it becomes Capitalism. In the case of Democracy, Capitalism is the tip of an iceberg which will eventually sink the Titanic. Capitalism not only represents a minority few, but it represents those who want money. Its selfish greed is self-destructive and will inevitably destroy itself in sheer, Marxist Socialism style when arrogance marches headfirst into the arms of destruction.

Examples of Capitalism in Democracy:

Laws that are passed that do not include the voters, the interest of the voters or the interest of the welfare of the majority. Let's take for example the laws that were lifted from pharmaceuticals permitting them to advertise on television, and within a few years, the price of prescriptions 800% and people who needed prescriptions to survive, died. What about laws that permit the poisoning of our drinking water and the sale of toothpaste to children that contains poisonous chemicals like Titanium Dioxide? What about laws that govern the prices of our food, our oil, what we can and cannot buy, and so on? The truth is - I could detail some very disturbing facts for you about how our entire political structure has been commanded for many, many years now by Capitalist leaders (ie. DuPont - the leaders in Titanium Dioxide production), whose sole goal is money. But, if you don't already know this - by the computer you sit in front of, the number of televisions in your home, the cars in your garage, the size and mortgage of your home, the name brand on the clothes you wear, the cartoon/commercially driven to purchase toys in your child's room and the slew of other, obvious facts all around you- then I'm afraid you are the one I spoke of when I first wrote this article and asked: when did we trade being people - for being sheep?

This is just not wolves in sheep’s clothing. At least the wolves eat the sheep for the reasons of survival. This would be the equivalent of the shepard selling out his own sheep and leading them to the wolves in trade for a pocket of gold and all the wool he could want, shear free! This is NOT free enterprise.

So, what is free enterprise? Free enterprise is exactly what it says: a competition market where anyone can compete against one another. This is what creates good pricing – not the government giving sole rights for ISBN licensing to Bowker, LLC., so they can charge people whatever they want and control the market. Free enterprise allows people to build a better mouse trap and offer it on an open market, not create 3 credit bureaus with all their flaws and corruption to dictate the terms of an individual’s life. In an article by Robert J. Samuelson with the Washington Post, he attributes Capitalism’s ability to survive to its diversity and America as a whole. However, I would counter this and say that he is in fact, incorrect. Capitalism has not thrived based on a system of diversity. Anyone who invests at the upper echelons of the stock market knows this – because they know that companies such as Viacom, DuPont and others, are the parent/umbrella corporations for a vast array of companies below them, and in fact, there is little diversity in our current economy. Additionally, I would support this with the every-growing siege on America by Capitalism:

If Capitalism could thrive based solely upon its diversity – then why pay off government agencies (who have a dictatorial authority over the people through the enforcement of laws vs. the threat of prison and death) - to pass laws that permit the poisoning of our water? Why develop a nation of TV-brained imbeciles who don’t recognize the harm of constantly being told how bad they are, and then buy the anti-depressant from the next commercial to get their “pill fix?” Or, perhaps this is the Diversity that Mr. Samuelson refers to – even if he doesn’t realize it. Perhaps Mr. Samuelson’s references to “entrepreneurial culture,” and “work ethic,” as Capitalism’s building blocks are truly the masquerade upon which it keeps its victims as easy targets. No – there is NO free enterprise. Free enterprise is gone. I cannot go put up a stand on a corner in the middle of town, or outside my house, and sell my vegetables.

Why not? Taxation, regulation, ordinances, fees, licensing, permits, applications, limitations, infringements upon minority groups, and a slew of other nonsensical laws that the Federal Government – a body that was designed to represent the people and defend this country – had no business passing. If this were a free enterprise, I could build a car tomorrow and sell it. You say – sure you can – go ahead. You say, just fill out the forms, pay the fees, apply for the licenses, pay for your own advertising – and you’re good to go.

Really? Are you sure about that? What about the competitive clauses that I alone may not face as a small guy – but if I were to try and build, say 10 million cars – that would forbid me that right? Need a better example? Try looking up what Walmart has not only done to small business, but the added regulations Walmart has helped “encourage” in towns across America, in Federal and State Legislation, that kill those small businesses. In fact, many of those same laws have eventually come back to bite Walmart, hard, until it exerts itself upon our political leaders and forces through laws for its own special interest and success. Again – when government crosses over into free enterprise - it is no longer free. Greece had the perfect example:

However, when the media and many others discuss the infringement on Capitalism by the Government’s march toward socialism, they are missing the mark entirely. Capitalism is the point in which free enterprise gives way to Socialism when it gets a boost from the politicians of the day who suddenly pass laws defending companies like Amtrak, because they are also invested in that company and have to protect their own interests. In the book: Corruption, Capitalism and Democracy, from Routledge Taylor and Francis Group, they discuss how the collusion between elitist politicians and elitist financially wealthy “capitalists,” (those who believe that the economy should dictate the laws – or He who has the gold “makes” the rules), are furthering the expansion of capitalist practive and market practice at the expense of democratic practice and public values.

So: Capitalism = free enterprise taking political control of the masses for its own, selfish gain; and in Democracy = the end of freedom. Thus, Capitalism = The end of freedom. But, you’re free, aren’t you? You can decide not to watch their shows, buy their “stuff,” and be independent, can’t you? HAHAHA – go ahead and try. The rules the government puts into place requires you to subscribe to the whims of Capitalism to keep it thriving. However, the greed on top never gets enough, the elitists get too fat, and the people just get poorer until there’s no more to give. This leads to rebellion and war (The Boston Tea Party for anyone interested in an example). Welcome to Free America. You’re free to shop and spend – and they’ll tell you to – a lot. It will be all around you; your iron will shall be shattered. Your beliefs shall be made frail upon your social condition. Your fear and hatred of your fellow man shall be made manifest by the infringement not upon your person – but your “stuff,” and how much it will cost you (or in a lawsuit – how much you’ll gain).  

But, what do you take with you from all of this?

Either you’re at home now, or you’ll be going home soon. And, you’ll need gas to drive your car. You’ll believe that you need 10 cops to every 1 person just to keep you safe on your journey. You’ll buy the food at the store that they make available, poisons or not. You’ll trust the FDA, the EPA, the ADA, the AMA and any other board that’s “government,” backed, because the government is SO honest – but regardless – you have to eat.

So - hold up - the ISTTF reported the internet's quite safe these days. So, what did these other two politicians do? They promoted free wire-tapping and forcing ISP's to keep permanent IP records of everyone. The consequences? IP records DON'T identify a person (go ahead google that phrase and see what you find). However, based on false information that is being presented to Congress - stop - go back - re-read "FALSE INFORMATION" - Congress must pass a law. Based on the presentation of the FBI to Congress that there is a risk of data loss if hard drives are given to defense, forensic experts, Congress must pass a law. Where's the "two-sides," to these arguments? Where's the Constitutionality? Well.. on that matter... I digress. Because, what's important here is evidence that "intelligence" sources have and ARE continuing to misrepresent data to Congress, falsely, and are causing laws to be irrationally initiated. So, where does the President/ex-Senator fit in? Mr. Obama claims his place of infamy in the "Protect Our Children First Act," which expanded upon the Adam Walsh Acts I & II, and further supported DHS' continuing removal of children from homes - even where children were never harmed, were quite safe and happy - and placing them into homes where they are lost, afraid and oft times are raped or abused (and in rare instances murdered).

Okay, fine, let's dispense with the idiotic mentality that we don't know that this is happening and get down to brass tacks, shall we? The commercial came on from the government sponsored 'protecting kids' campaign against 'online dangers.' Let me first repeat for you EXACTLY, ver batim, what the commercial states:

"You try to protect them. You want to keep them safe. You monitor what they watch. You set filters to control their content. But, are they really safe? ....... But, the truth is, you can't control your kids' exposure to sex, but you can control how they behave."

For those who MISSED it - let me point out the MAJOR areas of concern:

1. You - the parent, the role model, the guardian, the protector, the guidance counselor, the loved one, the creator, the provider - YOU - have NO control at all - YOU CAN NOT control YOUR CHILDS exposure to SEX because YOU can't stop the media - the ones broadcasting this commercial - from putting sex in front of them. YOU can't stop the abuse of the internet where idiots whose evolutionary basis for sex starts and stops at monkeys will post sex. YOU can't stop the kids at school from talking about it. YOU can't stop your own child's self-driven interest in it (aka their evolutionary development as you are NOT God).

2. But, you can control their behavior.

WHAT? Did I, um, miss something? Let me try this one on you: "Hey little Joey, I want you to say yes and no, sir and ma'am, thank you and please, never talk out of turn, always do your homework, do your chores, listen to every word I say, do as I say not as I do and behave...... But, what happens if they don't? Didn't the TV tell you that you could "control" their behavior? Oh, that's right - because the media is GOING to BLAST sex ALL OVER EVERY show they watch, every commercial they hear and do it so repeatedly that its effectiveness rivals hypnotherapy and subliminal messaging - you CAN'T control them. So, um, why... did the TV... tell me I could?

Because, in the face of Congressional laws coming out such as the "forced" community service, Congress wants to empower you to do as they say. You see - THEY CONTROL YOU. YOU - do not even control yourself. They DON'T need your vote. They DON'T need your approval. What they want - is your OBEDIENCE. But, you argue and say - "no, I'm NOT an idiot, I'm NOT your slave, this is a FREE country and I EXPECT the DEMOCRATIC process to allow me to put in my vote."

Now there's conflict. A resolution is needed. Congress says, "Well, we 'do' represent the desires of the people and we 'should' do what they want, but - naaaahhhhh - why do that? Let's scare them, weaken them, take away their power, screw with their heads - and when they're helpless - let's hit 'em below the belt!" You see, for those of you without children, let me 'splain.... no, wait, let me sum up (what movie? c'mon... you know which one 80's generation.. hahahaha):

We love our kids. We live in fear because we KNOW there are bad people out there, the police and court systems are inneffective and we don't want them hurt. Why? WE WENT THROUGH IT. The parents who are ignorant of what their kids are doing - didn't go through the hardships. WE KNOW. We do NOT want them to grow up. We want something DIFFERENT for them. We want a life of happiness and joy and one that doesn't involve strife and heartache. But, that's not always possible. We know that. And, we know that the media is just getting worse - and worse - and worse. I took my son to see a PG movie - and boy oh boy - what they get away with in PG movies is FAR more than I EVER wanted him to see. Learned my lesson.... And, what does the government do? They ENCOURAGE sex in media. The FCC throws a temper tantrum because Janet Jackson had a 'portion' of her COVERED boob pop out during the super bowl half-time because 'families' were watching - but.... it's okay to them that many of today's cartoons include kissing, sexual scenes, sexual jokes and the music videos that ALL the kids are watching include 'pimpin' the ho's' and the degraded value of idols such as Spears and Lohan.